Feeling A Tad Lost

As the title suggests, I’m feeling a bit lost at the moment with regards to my diet and exercise plan. Truth is I don’t really have a plan and I don’t like not knowing what I’m doing. I go through phases of being really focussed where I will plan my meals, have no junk food or treats in the house, I will up my water intake and work out about 4 times a week. This will continue for around 2 or 3 weeks then I will let the healthy eating slip at the weekend, I will have a glass or two of wine and a takeaway to celebrate it is the weekend. The next day I get the most horrendous hangover and end up stuffing my face with carbs I can literally eat all day without feeling full. I’m left bloated, uncomfortable and feel unhealthy, it now takes my body about 2 weeks to recover from eating junk.

For the last two weeks I have eaten really healthily but not worked out as much as I’ve had a virus and have had zero energy. Working out makes me feel good although it doesn’t make me have more energy like the experts say it should, I’m exhausted most of the time but feel better about myself if I can get a workout in. This has been part of my daily routine for the last 5 years, since Amelie was a baby.

I know I’m not alone in the quest for a slimmer better body, for me eating healthy and working out isn’t just about losing weight it is more about how I feel within myself. I ditched the scales ages ago and haven’t weighed myself since as I was getting really hung up on how much I weighed and getting upset if I put on a pound. I now go by how I look and feel in my clothes.

I know I’m heading in the right direction and am pleased with the results I’ve had from the Kayla Itsines BBG, my whole body has changed shape, my legs have slimmed down and are more toned, my tummy is far more toned and I actually have some definition in my arms. It has been a slow process but certainly worth it.

I know I will come out of my funk but right now I don’t know where I am with it all. I’m on holiday in 7 weeks so I’m feeling a bit of pressure, my main struggle is with lunches. I have no idea what to make for lunch that is healthy but filling, sometimes these grilled chicken salads are just puffs of air and I’m starving half an hour later then snack all afternoon. Do I join a Slimming World group or would they just laugh at me? Do I sign up for a company to prepare my meals so it is easier for me to make healthy choices without eating crap – what do I do????

I need a set meal plan and some will power, life does take over sometimes and all of this goes out of the window. I know what works for my body and gets results but it is so boring. I don’t see eating healthy as a “diet” it is more of a lifestyle change and there is no way I can stick to a diet, they have never worked for me in the past as I find them completely unsustainable. I would love to drink more water but find it difficult, I forget and always go for a cuppa tea or coffee.

I know I will figure it out and get back on track but I feel like I’m on a rollercoaster right now.


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